Madison and Fleetwood Mac

Every time I hear this song, these lyrics stick in my mind. I have heard it throughout my pregnancy and I have have realized as i get closer to my due date that even though everyone thought I'd go early, maybe i'll be late. She will do what she wants when she wants, just like her mama. I have finally made peace and i'd be very pleased if she stayed in until Friday, when we're due :) I have tried almost every natural induction method and it hasn't worked so I have to assume she isn't ready. A lot of women have told me that it's because I've carried her well and made her comfortable and I am okay with that statement. I am very pleased with her growth and I am satisfied with the fact that she is now over 7lbs :) She has long legs and arms, a chubby belly, gorgeous big eyes...I just want to see them in person. I do have random contractions, I no longer have a mucus plug and I'm just sort of waiting now.

Come when you can, Madison. The world is waiting to see your pretty face :)

Listen to this gorgeous cover below:

Go Your Own Way

Something has been bothering me...

I'm annoyed when people tell me i will believe in spanking (or some other thing like CIO etc) and go against my gentle parenting philosophy once Madison gets here and i become a ‘real’ parent. Um, i am a real parent despite not having her here yet. i am in tune with my child, i want to learn how she feels and understand her rather than punishing her for her personality. every child is raised differently and each child is individual but if you treat a child like a person- with respect and not like someone who is smaller and younger than you who couldn’t possibly know a damn thing about life, they would respect you too. I think if you start them out knowing what to expect from you, they wont try to take advantage of you. a child doesn’t set out to be manipulative, they don’t set out to be bad- we as parents are here to guide them, not make them feel like lesser than.

realization...

So this entire pregnancy i've just wanted to meet my daughter, i wanted time to go by faster and i just wanted my end result. Now that i've gotten here with 7 days left, though i refuse a chemical induction because i want to go all natural, i just want my mermaid to stay in. I'm not afraid of the birthing process, kind of nervous to be a first time mama but now that she's so close, i just want time to slow down. Though i do think i could deal without the pelvic pain, the cramping, the back pain....i guess at the end of the day if she wants to bake a little longer, i have to let her go her own way. i cant force induction naturally and i am above trying the castor oil method because its harmful and doesnt sound pleasant in the least.

i love you my little mermaid. when you come out, all we want is for you to be healthy :)

- ericka